I had a moment a few days ago where I just got SO ANGRY at this whole situation. I broke down crying - J and I were supposed to go grocery shopping, and I just lost it. He left me at home and I just fell into bed and sobbed and punched and screamed.
That hasn't happened for awhile, and I don't know what brought it on. But I'm doing better now.
As the school year gets closer and closer, it's things like that that worry me. I mean, what if that happens, and I can't escape?
Sometimes I question whether or not I'm a strong enough person to deal with this. But I'm writing this, and not crying. And that makes me feel good.
<3<3<3 oh honey. I know this feeling so well. I keep thinking I'm done losing my shit and then I burst into tears watching like an iPhone commercial or because I see someone's baby pics on FB.
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