I think I've started and deleted blog entries approximately 12 times this past week.
Nothing really major; I just didn't know what to say. I look at this blog as therapy, but sometimes the thought of delving into it and opening up some wounds to figure out some stuff is just difficult.....easier to just avoid.
I'm dealing with a sinus infection and I got food poisoning this week....good times. J. has been taking good care of me. We're doing pretty well - still dealing with some of the fallout of the drama, but we're doing good. Just have to keep talking - I have to encourage him to talk more about when he's unhappy. And we're getting there.
The student of mine that had a baby girl same day we lost Olivia? Well, I made the mistake of not hiding him on Facebook, and she crawled for the first time yesterday. That sent me into a tailspin. All of these firsts we haven't gotten to experience....all of these moments that SHE didn't get to experience. It sucks. It sucks SO MUCH.
We're half-heartedly trying to get pregnant - meaning, we're not stressing. Just enjoying each other and if that's a happy by-product, excellent.
Sigh.
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